three fears of mine...

1. confined spaces.

.I am ok in lifts/elevators. I am fine even in small cars, bedrooms etc..BUT do not ask me to go pot holing, or into tight narrow spaces or to crawl into tight spot because l just cannot do.  I once watched a movie where a person was kidnapped, had hands and feet bound and tape across mouth and then was put in the trunk of a car..l literally nearly went off in a weakness and had to get up and leave the room.

I do remember being very young and at home playing and some cousins came over. There was a game of hide and seek. l remember l went to hide in the hot press and one of the cousins came and locked the door from the outside not realising l was in there.  I stayed quiet a short while and then panic set in and l kept shouting and shouting and shouting until eventually someone found me...

I do believe this to be the route of my fear..

I do get what the whole "feel the fear and do it anyway brigade" are saying, but sometimes l thinks it is more of a case of feel the fear and do what the best thing for yourself is.  there are other fears l can deal with but this is one whose boundary does not need testing


2.Heights

I have done my best with this fear in that l have gone to the top of tall buildings, have climbed mountains, l have gone abseiling on several occassions.  however this is a fear that l feel in  a very physical way and have to respond as best l can when it strikes. For example on my honeymoon l sent my husband off up to the top of the Eiffel Tower by himself, l was quiet happy to wait at the bottom sipping a hot chocolate and admiring the view.
on another occassion l was going great guns going up to the top of an old tower with some friends and then l got the feeling and had to go with it, and came back down the old stone slab staircase shuffling on my butt like a baby. but l am ok with that too.


3.  Recurring dream/fear
This is not a particular fear as it is a dream but it is a dream l have had many times over the years so l have given it much thought.
I dream that l suddenly realise l am being followed or am being chased/attacked and l go to run but my legs are like lead and nothing l try can make me go any faster and l keep trying but cannot run and l scream in my dream and wake up with a start..
It should be the best motivation l have ever had to get fit but alas ...not yet..