How l felt becoming a parent

I think it was amazing, the whole process of becoming pregnant. We planned it, decided to try, and we blessed it worked right away. nine months later, literally we welcomed our first born into the world.  l was extremely relieved she had arrived and appeared to be perfect. she was incredibly beautiful and content also.  we picked her name which seemed to instantly suit her. The most amazing thing for me was that as the visitors left and it was just me and her.. l couldnt believe she was mine for keeps. I couldnt believe that that l had brought a person into the world.
I kept calling her by my niece's name and thinking of her as that name and then l had to keep practicing her name.

the reality of becoming a parent takes quite some time to filter through. it happens in waves. It is a rollercoaster of emotion, elation, pride, overwhelming love, panic, fear, concern about your parenting, fear of your child becoming sick.

as my daughter grew it became more mind blowing that l had brought this little bub into the world.  Everybody said she was the absolute image of me and that was even more mind blowing and for many reasons.  I would never have thought myself to be attractive or good looking and yet my daughter is the most amazingly beautiful child. She is a revelation to me.

When we decided to have a second child, shortly after our daughter's first birthday, l did say to my husband, can we love anybody as much as we love our little girl.
Then my son was born after a very very difficult and worrying pregnancy.  Wow is all l can say.
My hurt burst with love. He was born a few days early, he was healthy and well which was a huge relief. The fact that he was absolutely   gorgeous and made my heart do somersaults answered any questions about being able to love your second child as much as your first.

watching them grow up, battle childhood illness, learn to walk and talk, develop their relationships etc. has been amazing and exhausting and rewarding.

If my daughter is my mirror image then the same can be said of my son and his dad. so in many ways it is like watching ourselves start the journey of life all over..