As many of my friends know, l have come through what has been a very difficult year to 18 months. I had a lot of health problems, none of which was life threatening, but they were ongoing and constant and meant l was exhausted for a very long time and sick from all the medication l was taking. The loss of energy and vitality was, l found, a very depressing experience for me. I was reduced to sitting at home resting and collecting kids from school. going home again. That and doctors appointments, physiotherapy appointments and chiropractic appointments. I must also say that the constant worry about financial instability was a huge strain on both myself and my husband.
However, when you have less money, you budget more and in fact you can stretch your income with a bit of practice.
I have also said in earlier blog entries about the restorative power social media, in particular Twitter had on my overall wellbeing. The kindness of strangers, the friendships l have made, the penpals l now exchange cards and small gifts with, it has been an immensely comforting experience.
I have worked very hard on my health, my wellbeing. I have taken tonics, vitamins, energy boosting foods, mood lifting teas, teas to help with stress, to help with sleep, meditation, relaxation apps. you name it, l have done it.
So here l am. It has been 16 months since l last worked in my chosen profession. I had a lengthy spell of sick leave and am now thrilled to be 7 months into a three year career break.
In spite of my head cold this week l am enjoying much improved health, my back problem and constant pain are far better.
My mood has lifted in tandem with my improved health.
People often ask me what would l like to do with the rest of my life..big question. afterall l am on a career break so at the end of three years my profession beckons again.
however l see lots of other options opening up that l would not have seen before. I will never make lots of money, but as long as l have enough for the basics that's enough.
This week my kids are on midterm break from school.
We are having a lovely time. not perfect, but real and lovely.
Today l took them for a haircut, then took them to an activity centre, then made lunch, took them to store to run errands, home, made them their dinner, had some of their pals over to play. All simple, no rush, no fuss, just go with the flow.
Then l baked brown bread, made a lovely chicken casserole for dinner and tonight l baked cup cakes.
Nothing there that l havent done before I know
It touched me to the core of my being. I felt such a sense of peace and calm and happiness.
I think after years of being a full time working mum, this new phase of me being at home full time has made our life much simpler.
I finished the day kissing my kids goodnight As they went to sleep i was back in the kitchen icing cup cakes singing along to Nora Jones on the Ipod
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